The Time Has Come

This post is about strength, and how I had to stand up for myself in order to protect my fragile situation.

Yesterday was my last day at WTOL. I decided to quit after having too many unpleasant situations with one of my managers. She was constantly condescending and micromanaging everything I did to where it hindered my work ability.

The situation came to a head 2 weeks ago when I had a breakdown after another one of her constant judging moments. I fell back into the blackness of not wanting to live. Something I have not felt in years. I just felt completely hopeless in my situation and not having a place to release my anger/sadness through my crafting as I had before did not help.

It was then that my therapist, family and I decided this job was just not worth it.

I felt as if I was giving up on a dream. I want to produce so bad, but the thought of being in such a negative environment where I wasn't even being allowed to do my job properly just made it all the easier to walk away.

WTOL wasn't all negative though. I made some of the best friends in the short time I was there.  People who were honest and taught me new things that helped me out. People with the same weird sense of humor as I and were fine with me being crazy.

Thank God for these friends who helped send me off With a smile, knowing how difficult this decision was, but understanding why it had to be done. I have been very lucky to keep getting jobs at locations with some of the best people around.

Now I am off on another adventure. I have accepted a freelance Associate Producer position back where my career started... WJBK in Detroit. Being freelance, I'll be able to make my own schedule and ease in to it. Even better, it is doing exactly what I had done there before, so it's a job I am already familiar with.

I have said it before and I'll say it again, I'm a big believer in things happening for a reason. Though these past few months were difficult, I made it through, and have come out stronger. I was able to take a situation into my own hands and stand up for myself. I am now going back to a place I loved, and am going to make sure I give myself the time to live and not work myself to the bone. I'm making myself a priority, something I typically don't do.