Thank You for Being a Friend

Dear Reader...

I know it has been since November since I last wrote, and I'm sorry for that.  I'd also like to tell you things have been amazing and thus my lack of scribbling... but not so much.  Since my last post, a lot has changed. Some good, some bad.

My depression has been overpowering lately. Especially after I had a wonderful moment of elation where I felt everything was going right. I once again felt like life wasn't worth it. Too much pain. Too much pressure. Too many things are just too unattainable.

One person though has been by my side, helping me get through it... and this is for her.

25th Birthday Celebration!!

I first met Siobhan in late 2012. She use to be an intern at Fox 25 before I started there, and became good friends with all my coworkers. As such, she continued to meet up with the gang every Tuesday at BBC. It was there that our friendship began.

Whiskey at Wiskey's

Our first impressions of each other... not the greatest. We both have honestly told each other that we were apprehensive of the other, wondering who the heck this "girl" was hanging with our people. After quite a few once overs and a few beers, we both instantly clicked. And as time past, our friendship has grown, and she has become a huge source of strength for me.

Most recently, I had a day where I felt completely lost. Couldn't stop crying. Didn't want to be here anymore. Didn't know what to do. I text her asking if she could meet me after work to talk, and she did not hesitate. We met at a bar near Fox and she just let me spew out all I had been feeling... tears, fears, all the pain that had been growing inside me. Now I had told Siobhan about my depression before, but she didn't know just how bad I was until that night.

Indie lovins

After pouring my heart out, she replied only as she could. With a smile, she told me I was ridiculous, that she loved me, and that I never need to feel that low as long as she is around. As we sat there talking til the bar closed, we learned a lot about each other, and that the grass always seems greener on the other side. She was straight forward and didn't sugar coat a thing. But as long as we have each other, everything will be okay. It was then I knew I could always depend on her.

My gift to Siobhan for her 25th
A plate of McD's at the BBC

Today, Siobhan and I hung out before work. She met me at my apartment and we walked to the New Yorker Diner for breakfast. Conversation was flowing, coffee was drank, tons of food was eaten! When we got back to my house, instead of just heading home, Siobhan stayed with me. She went straight into my room, jumped on my bed, and started hanging with Indie. We ended up just chilling there for another hour... finding funny videos online, chatting about anything and everything. It was then that I realized she is more than just a friend, she is family.

Ever since I have moved to Massachusetts, I have continuously spouted about how lucky I am to be here. I have been blessed with meeting the most wonderful, colorful, creative people. Siobhan is just one of them.

Thank you Siobhan for acting ridiculous with me. 

Thank you for being my partner in crime. 

Thank you for enjoying beer/burgers/McNuggets and the occasional Chicken Pot Pie(or 2) as much as I do. 

Thank you staying up and playing Just Dance with me til 4AM. 

Thank you for being a good sport and going to Dim Sum even though you needed grease for your hangover. 

Thank you for being a part of my crazy, beautiful life.

Your heart is true. You're a pal and a confidant.

OMG it's Kevin Lemanowicz!!!

Warming up by the fire