You know it's funny how the littlest thing can make you look back at your life. For me, that was a dream. This dream felt more like a nightmare when I look back on it. However it made me realize how much I have grown over the past year.
Let's discuss this dream. In it, I was still with one of my ex's. I was living here in Boston, had my job at Fox, had all my wonderful friends. The nightmare part... he needed to move for a job, and I reluctantly chose to go with him. The move though was immediate, and I had to drop my entire to go with him.
Now I'm not saying I would never not do something like that if I were in love. Of course sacrifices are made in relationships. But in the dream I was devastated about having to leave everything I loved. In fact, I ended up resenting my ex in the dream.
There was a ton more that happened... but it was the leaving Boston that hurt the most. Having to tell my coworkers I was leaving, quitting the job I love more than life, leaving my happy apartment. The emotions both while asleep and once I awoke were pretty intense about this.
I cannot fully express how much my life has improved since I came here. Not just professionally, but personally. I have become a strong, independent woman. I no longer require the things I felt I needed from life before. I especially am surprised at how I now see relationships.
In the dream, I sacrificed my own personal happiness for someone else who didn't bother to consider how it hurt me. Honestly, that's who I use to be. I know if that situation happened in real life, I would have done that. No longer is that the woman here at the keyboard. Don't get me wrong though, all relationships require a sacrifice of some sort, but no longer will it always come at my expense as it has in the past.
**Insert my typical "I love my life" quote here**
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